Do I desreve this

Do I desreve this?
After getting betrayed so bad,
Still love you like mad,
But i'm all involved in it,
But there seems you have doubt but yo dont show it?
You hurt me so much,
I never complained,
all i need was you love like insane...
Now when You say you love,
then why cant commit???
why is it?
why is it?
Do you really think I deserve it?